Happy days

It is May 24 and I am feeling so great.
After the few weeks of struggling and just wanting to give up on this thing called recovery I got my act together once again.
Last week I had a few bad days and my anxiety was through the roof. I didn't even want to leave the house until my mom forced me to go buy milk. On the way to the store I cried because I felt as if everyone was judging me and it didn't help that I had weighed myself that day. I hate how weight fluctuates from all the binging and purging. At the end of that ordeal I decided that I am going to take my therapists advice and go on medication for my anxiety because I would like to start living again and not cry because I am taking a 5 minute ride to the store.
After I made that realization about the medication I felt as if a weight had been lifted because I had finally made a decision now I just have to tell her at our next session on thrusday. I really do like her a lot; for the first time I feel like I am being heard and someone understands me. Next decision that needs to be made is whether or not I want my parents to come in for a session. I don't think that my mom would be willing to but I think that my dad would like to. I am just not sure I want them to know everything just yet.

Now the improvements I have only purged once in the past 4 days. I know such a big accomplishment especially since I have been eating and not starving. I am still working on upping my daily consumption of food though everyday. I also have not been counting which is so damn stressful and great all at the same time.

I am actually doing okay and back to working on this recovery business!
I hope by the end of summer I am really better and able to go back to college and be okay with life again.
I know that I will always struggle but I just need to be in a better head space (like this one I am in now) by the end of summer.

After that long novel...I am glad to say that I am happy =)
I hope that you guys are happy too =)