After four long and stressful years I decided that enough was enough. I finally decided that the shameful secret must come out. That I could no longer listen to this eating disordered voice in my head. I could no longer concentrate because of how loud the voice was getting. I was no longer able to hold up the carefully crafted facade that I had kept for many years.
I went to the counselor and she talked to me about everything and finally I could breathe again. My mom and dad both know but don't truly understand and they are both emotional wrecks but they did well with seeing me this weekend.
It has been a tough week, from being threatened to be kicked out of school, to having to see my parents and be home. Also all the doctor appointments/screenings that I had to happen. Well I will either be getting evaluated at children's hospital or Walden behavioral care sometime this week or next.
I am anxious because my future hangs in the balance.
I am also ready for the help I so desperately need.
I hope with all of my might that I can get better.
but can someone just answer me this...
Who am I without my eating disorder?
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